Dilemma

My parents or at least my mum seems to want me to go back to Chong Hwa. She keeps on hinting me. Like 'xxx said it's wasted talent that you transferred to a government school' or 'did anyone ask you to go back to chong hwa' or 'after June you can't go back anymore because then you can't take the UEC'

And the biggest problem I'm having is, I don't think I'll be able to take O level this year, for some reasons, which makes my transferring extremely useless. That was the sole reason I wanted to transfer to a government school, so that I can speed up everything, have more time to my own. Going to a crappy school but not being able to advance more quickly? That's not something I signed up for. I didn't throw away my previous life for this. I didn't go through everything for this.

I don't know what to do now. Part of me wants to go back, but I don't want to have my life all toppled up, my schedules rearranged and all that. And going back, is not a good idea. In fact, turning back is never a good idea, especially after I watched Gossip Girl. People change. They pick up whatever I've left them, and make their own new life, while I make mine. So the string is broken.

But if I really can't take O level exams this year, then what for am I wasting my time in a crappy school?

Anyway what's the deal with a normal life? How long more do I have to live this normal life? I'm like living the most normal life among all the other gifted friends I know. One went to Cambridge at 15, 2 did their O level at 15, several are homeschooled. Me? Went to a government primary school from 7-12. Like any other kid. Went to secondary school at 13. Currently 15 and in form 3. Just like everyone else.

Ice Skating

I went for skating lesson on Monday actually. I know, it's been quite some time but I was just lazy to write about it.

So anyway, my new coach is Ms Cheryll. To be frank, she looks a little nerdy and odd. I believe she's quite young, but she looks quite old on the contrary, older than her age perhaps. I would prefer if she were more beautiful though, like Ms Jenny. Do not judge a book by its cover, but still, aesthetics mean quite a bunch to me.

I don't know if she's better than my previous coach, Bee Leng, but I like her class in the way that she's softer, and doesn't shout at me. I just hate people shouting at me.

Skating is a thrilling activity. As I step onto the ice, I feel exhilarated. When will the day come when the ice would belong to me? -keeps dreaming-

PS: I just had the thought that colors are overrated. So this post has no colored words.

Alone

Math test was super easy yesterday. I seriously don't know how a test can be that easy. >.> I'm not bragging or whatever, but everyone knows my brilliantness in math right? xD

Anyway I just realized I've been doing pretty much everything alone ever since secondary school. I nearly always eat alone, study alone, spend break time alone, read alone, walk alone, go to class alone, go to school alone, play tennis alone (besides my coach), dance alone, swim alone, skate alone, attend camps/workshops alone, do volunteer work alone ... The list basically goes on and on.

Ironically, I'm a pretty much balanced introvert and extrovert. I don't know how I endured my life doing so much alone. I need a social life. Seriously. And it doesn't do to help that I'm sitting at the left most corner of the class. No one in front of me, only one person next to me and two directly behind me.

Speaking of which, I hate where I'm sitting. I'm exposed to sunlight like nearly an hour. It's not that I don't like sunlight, I don't mind it but the UV ray these days is going to spoil my cells. And I can't see the other end of the white board from where I'm sitting. And the chair makes my back hurt. It's awful. And I'm sitting inside, so I can't go in and out freely. Bummer.

My school uniform

And there's my new school uniform. Not that the design has any different compared to Chong Hwa. Chong Hwa -> +0 for creativity >.>

Note the small, round, green thing at the collar? That's to differentiate between morning and afternoon session.

My name tag... And the school badge zoomed in.

Bits And Pieces

I'm loaded with work now. There are projects to complete, and I have to study for mid year exam. Yes, I know, it's not till May but there are a lot of chapters to study, so it's better to start earlier than cram everything last minute.

As for projects, I was so used to getting all the information from teacher that now, I'm just lost. Luckily I still have some sources, but yeah, I still need to go fishing for information on my own.

It feels nice to know more than the others. Like during science class, we were learning the activeness of metals. And I was babbling off, K, Na, Ca, Mg, Al.. and the person sitting next to me was like staring at me, as though I was mad. xD They didn't even know what I was rattling about, as they haven't learned chemical symbol. How can you say you've learned chemistry without knowing chemical symbols? Except O2, CO2, H2O blah blah everyone knows that >.>

Second week

To be honest, school is crap. Even though I keep telling people it's ok. The quality of the facilities and teachers and things taught is really horrible. But the people here are not too bad. At least they're better than the 3 Xiao boys, who were (note the past tense, since I don't know how they are now) gibberish and lame.

Had two tests today of which I did badly in both I believe... First 2 periods, science test, following 2 periods, BM test.

Moral periods are plain crap. The teacher asks us to act for nearly every period. Teachers are always absent too.

To my rivals in math competitions: I'm not participating in any math related competitions this year, since it's the school's policy, to not send any students until form 4, so that's one opponent less huh.

Unfortunately my talents haven't been discovered, but that means I can stay undercover longer. And if everything goes according to plan, this will be the last year of my secondary school life. xD